where in heavens have you been??

in bed. in the bathroom and sitting next to a bucket would easily sum up my GPS location.

If someone had been by my side the last few weeks, they would assume I would have been blogging about it.I mean, where do i begin??

I was deciding what to release out of this brain of mine.
My feelings. Deep. Raw feelings about the football season and how that greatly affects my marriage on a weekly basis. My tivo selections are on the back burner. I could praise my tolerance? Or how great it can be to have a husband obsessed with not missing a game… its great when you use it to your advantage. Hours of shopping with no interruption. I love football season.

Or should I give you insight on to how much the early stage of pregnancy sucks. It’s not beautiful at all. If I hear one more person say how pleased they are that im sick because that apparently means a healthy baby.. I will aim my puke towards their feet.jk. well.. kinda :) Maybe when you see the baby’s heart beat on a screen for 2 minutes your heart skips but that’s pretty much it. I can’t wait to have this baby in my arms!!!!!!! But I admit.. if I have to bear this sucky stuff so they baby doesn’t… its worth it. can you imagine...


your starving.. so you you eat this delicious meal and minutes later... before you can count to 10 it all moves up and out.. now.. this is not like it once was. this would happen to me once a day .... then i reached the 3-4 times a day. it was very upsetting. and i was left with a disgusting taste in my mouth and hungry..


I’m not sure if you still went to Wal-Mart [31st street temple] if there would be traces of my vomit. I puked in Wal-Mart. I couldn’t help it!!! I tried!!! Boohoo I tried… but it was those darn can food lanes… who needs those stinky lane? Besides campers, cooks and people ignoring the fresh for the canned version. But besides all of them… who needs canned foods?
I can’t quite tell if my senses are just on the rise or one or more of those cans was exposed… leaking its smelly self.

Oohhh the inhumanity of being so weak in a public place. It was awful.


Each time I visit the doctor I have to walk into the OB section, they provide I clear large cup for me to pee and then I have to carry this cup to my room. It’s a fairly long walk and I always get stopped by people I know or Mahan’s colleagues. Super embarrassing.

I’m napping a lot like im back in kindergarten, puking like I have food poisoning and crying.. ohhhhh crying like everyday is a scene from the notebook movie.

Its tears that come out of NO WHERE … luckily last for 2 minutes and then im happy again. Mahan finds this ALL hilarious!

Iran president on Bahai's at UN press conference

I always tend to support the underdog. It most cases I’m proud and think more of us should do so.
To not follow the popular vote.


When Iran’s president, Ahmadinejad… said sometime last year that he did have a nuclear program and that he didn’t see it fair that only the United States can have nuclear programmes.
There was a part of this New Zealander inside me that agreed. Since when has the United States had authority to decide who gets the second rank of power in the world? I think Bush was being a bully? I thought we has intentionally trying to start something when he already had too man fires going. Does he really want another war?
Is he really that STUPID TO invade Iran?

Is the united states government that trustworthy that we can rely their reasoning is for the good of the United States citizens. I don’t trust politicians. I don't trust bush. I don't think he's BAD person. I just don't think he can do the job.
I also don't appreciate someone barking nuclear programme "passes or restrictions" because they think they control the safety of the world.


There was a part of me that knew how media and interviews could wrongly misconstrue things. Meanings. Intentions.I thought that at times this was the case for the Iranian president.After his comment about the Jewish people and the holocaust. I knew he was a fanatic. But I was still hoping he was brainwashed and not the brain washer. I still had hope.Naive . yes.

My father loved the news. It was the only thing on Television he would watch. My mother on the other hand, loathed television [ mainly because there were too many half naked women flaunting assets in the middle of the day ]she also disliked the news. She thought it was the bearer of bad news. She, Like I... is sensitive. we care the burden of the world on our shoulders. overthink. I guess that's where i get it from.


On multiple occasions when friends ask how I feel about the Iranian president. I said that "I don’t feel”.
I’m only saddened that the innocent continue to suffer and some still dont understand what that injustice and setback is doing to them as an individual and as a country.

It was on CNN 2 weeks ago. Anderson cooper. It was both a proud and disturbing moment. proud, because my religion was a topic. a concern that is finally receiving spotlight. we want answers.

disturbing was the response.

It made my blood boil. To think that if you completely ignore the existence of a 6 million strong religion, persecution and the awful treatment of thousands of Baha'i can just go unanswered. To think it’s not worthy of an answer. How painful that was to watch the smirk on his face.
He is no longer the underdog.
He is great need of an education.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=XV2qZtB8W3c

To be in the presence of the UN, what do they UN just get their facts from thin air?
Are they all a bunch of idiots?

currently on the menu...

so i'm currently in love with a few things....

1. Homemade tortilla with peanut butter and jam [ I get it fresh and homemade from this mexician restuarant which pretty much are making them all day long...soft...fresh. yum ]

2. mc d's strawberry milkshake.yummo. i'm convinced it cures nausea for at least 15 minutes.

3. mashed potatoes - nothing beats plain comfort food right now

4, sleep. anywhere. anytime.

Thats pretty much all thats on the menu for today.