suck it up or spell it out ?

ever regretted saying what you think and wish you just zipped those lips up?
i wonder if it was easier all those times you got sensitive, irritated and just let it slide or if it was worth the 4 second feeling of sticking up for yourself?
There are consequences of everything we say or do. Some intentional and some not so much. my mom told me to always not expect anything from anyone.. I guess then you'll always be pleasantly surprised. If you stuck to that idea, it would be hard to be hurt and disappointed by others.


I found this online and thought it summed it up pretty well..


First, ask yourself if the problem is worth arguing about. Most of the time, people argue over little things that don’t really matter. Once you realize how silly the argument is, it is usually fairly easy to say, “Hey, this is silly. It doesn’t really matter, does it?” Then, you call a truce, compromise, and forget about it.

What was that word – compromise? Yep, if each of you gives in a little, you should both be reasonably happy. But, if one or both of you stubbornly stands firm, you just might damage your relationship.

The truth is, friends or couples argue because they care about each other. They care about each other’s ideas, opinions, and desires. So, when they disagree, they are likely to try to change the other’s mind because they really want to agree with each other, and it hurts when they don’t agree. Unfortunately, it also hurts when they argue, so they really need to follow the advice given above.

So after reading that... kinda makes you wish you sucked it up.

“I have learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.”
James Rhinehart

2009

It will probably be 2010 by the time i get use to writing 2009 on my checks but here goes....

This years resolution is to cook healthier... more steaming, baking, fish....
less chicken parm, mac'n'cheese,enchiladas.... all the warm cozy make your soul sing & thighs expand. The truth is that all the foods i make arent considered 'light' unless you only eat a teaspoon so I need to change our food habits. If only i could bake less.. mahan's dessert requests are causing that 'pregnancy look' to never go away!

my second resolution is to make time for me. Im not going to let myself go because getting myself back is twice as hard! I need to make time for bubble baths, time to pluck, wax ,get a massage, sleep... READ a book that isnt a book about making homemade baby food or raising a bright child in todays society.
As much as i wish i could take alana on our vacations i hate to admit that deep down mahans insistance that we just be alone does me good. I miss her like crazy but the rest allows me to come back as a better more refreshed mom.

Alana is down for a nap. coffee machine is beeping and im outtaaaaa here :)
so long my friends!

its just 24 hours right? :(

so I've been married for a little over 3 and a half years now.
some days it feels like yesterday and some days it feels like ive known mahan all my life.When we first got married i had no idea how much he would be on call and i would be home alone for 24 hours. I thought i had said Au revoir to being home alone. I am a proud chicken that hides behind a confidant unbreakable shell when in all reality i'm a big softy scared to be seen as weak. When it was just the two of us, i would always go and stay with him in the hospital. They provide these little suites with a single bed, bathroom computer and tv.He wouldn't even have a chance to sleep some nights but just knowing i wasnt completely alone was comforting [ once you get over the cheap hospital sheets and hospital smell ]. when I stayed home.. I would get so scared i would stay up till 8 am or pass out at 5 from complete exhaustion. I started baking a cheesecake at 3 am, had a movie marathon, drove to walmart at 4 am.. and spent an hour or so roaming the aisles for something i may need but dont exactly know i need misson. I was so sleepy i could burn myself taking the damn cheesecake out, spill red nail polish on our white couch, knit, scrapbook, dust, clean... you name it i did. ALL just to pass time so he would come home! You see, he is partially to blame... the number of Americas most wanted shows mahan has made me watch and made me terrified!
I was so glad when residency was over with... hoping the calls would be less or non existent. Tonight.. after a VERY long time he is on call. I was starting to forget what the words 'on call' actually meant. With Alana in bed hours ago...I've done all our laundry, watched all my shows, did some reading and looked at every single new photo that was added this weekend on facebook.
i still have 7 hours to go :(

Things you may not know about me

1. I am a germ freak, i get so nervous when i hear people coughing especially when they don't cover their mouths. I disinfect everything and carry sanitizing spray and lotion with me at all times. From this i suffer from ridiculously dry hands.

2. I would rather have a shopping spree at the grocery store than a clothing store. I enjoy every part of cooking.. buying beautiful produce is more exciting to me.

3. I blast on the music and dance when no ones home

4. Health ...Tomatoes give me leg cramps, i have really poor eye sight and I'm a A+ BLOOD TYPE

5.I've never broken a single bone in my body, i enjoy watching the needle go in when i get injections and I have weak wrists

6. I rather write to you or drive to you over calling you on the phone.

7. I'm not an only child but i always felt like one. My brothers were + 16 years older

8. My favorite time is right before i sleep when mahan and I talk

9.
Im thinking of trading in my agreement with mahan about my 5 year anniversary ring to get one of these. With their price tag... you'll understand why.

10. my only fear is are not be around to protect and guide alana from all the worlds evils.