ONE YEAR

sometimes people don't understand when i say how i don't want Alana to grow up.
I just feel like time goes by so fast as it is and before i know it I'll be waving as she jets off to another country and all I'll have is a long distance phone call. I fear being my mother and i cant imagine how she let me go. but she did.
I can only imagine it being the hardest day of my life. letting someone you love more than life itself love someone or thinking else that pulls them away...


May 11th Alana will be one year old. just thinking about it makes me teary.
Tomorrow may 2nd we've having her hello kitty themed party. its pretty pimped out. obviously its more my party than hers. the house is already decorated... i can pretty much see her thinking 'what the hell?' when she wakes up.

She makes me so happy i can bearly believe how lucky and blessed i am that jujeh is healthy and happy. She gives kisses, loves to be chatty in bed, pokes my mouth and eye, she crawls, loves to read or just flip through books...whatever you want to class that as, she loooooves to eat adult food, she's a foodie, she loves babies even though she's still a baby herself and loves to go dah-dah. I think she's very smart. but then again what mother wouldn't say that about their child. maybe we just have a connection.... where we understand each other.

My daughter is soon to be one.My only hope is that she can grow up to get the best of me and mahan. Grow up to be strong, confident, compassionate, creative, nurturing, thoughtful, spiritual and happy.

Alana has made our little family funnier, our life more meaningful, our bills a little more expensive and my hope for the world more positive. when she's awake i find myself holding back from biting on her little chicken thigh, or squeezing her cheeks. Then she's a sleep i just look at her photos from when we was a baby. I awh-and eee... guess its part of being a mom. little obsessive.

one year down. many many happy years to come.
Happy birthday my little jujeh. [ jujeh - is farsi for baby chick. fyi ]

mamma got herself a new crib

we found our new home in dallas :)i'm very excited about my new kitchen but not looking forward to packing and unpacking. cant the moving fairy do that for me?

visitors welcome :)

TOP THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE

in no order. i saw this somewhere and thought id do my own.

1* Be able to make amazing sushi. did you know an authentic sushi chefs are held in high regard in japan and they just learn how to make sushi rice for the first 2 years? something a food show told me.

2* Attend all the important milestones in my childrens lives.

3* Learn how to sew.

4* travel extensivly to greece and through europe

5* Learn to snowboard

6* Bungyjump off somewhere spectacular

7* Paint something im proud of to put in my living room

8* Design my own dream kitchen

9* Train and complete a marathon

10* Go to a celine dion concert

11* Read all the regilious books of the world.

12* master yoga

13* Write a book

14* ponder less

15. eat the worlds best chocolate

16. ice skate in NYC

17. honor my parents

18. be considered thoughtful

19. swim with dolphins

20. learn how to take a compliment

21. be someones mentor

22. sleep under stars

23. accept myself for who i am

24. go fishing and later cook my own catch

25. visit the holy land with my children

26.Look into your child's eyes, see yourself, and smile.

27 . scuba dive

28. sit on an elephant

29. be the boss

30. skydive