Do you sell those in a size "fat" ?

I have packed on at least 15 extra pounds over the last two and a half years. I blame it on mahan. But really.... its all my own doing. I cook far too much.. and i have my portions ALL wrong. i already know my problem!!

Until last month, I owned 5 pairs of jeans. The last time I bought jeans was at least 1 year ago - I hate shopping for jeans, I love wearing jeans.

Why would someone who hates shopping for jeans do just that??

It occurred to me that I've been wearing a lot of flow-y dresses, maternity-looking shirts and leggings lately ... I finally connected the dots. I need to stop eating! No - that's just crazy talk! The real epiphany? I needed jeans!

Anyway - I was cranky the rest of the day. then i got mad [ well inside mad at every skinny person i saw ] I was mad at myself for going up TWO clothing sizes, and furious that the little spare cash I have went to buying fat jeans, instead of, say - cute jeans that I feel sexy in.

this stink.

a sad sad day

It happened.
The day I thought would be a few years away….at least!!!

I have a pair of jeans that hold great significance.
A pair of jeans that told me many things… They told me how one size could fit all!
They told me I was skinny and the endless carbs do not faze me! They told me the scale is my enemy and it has consistently been lying to me.

Lana, my skinny best friend gave me a pair of jeans 2 years ago.
These jeans became “The Lana jeans”
With great pride I compressed my butt into these jeans and after the mission of getting the jeans on was done. I told myself how great I am to be able to fit into her jeans.

I LOVED the Lana jean.

Guess what?
Those same jeans that I could get on [with some difficulty…] will no longer rise above my ass.

I cried. My ass cannot be re-sculpted yet…. [ keyword : yet ]
So I had to say good-bye to “The Lana jean”